Deceptive Solitude (Caleb Memoria)

From Love and Deepspace Wiki
Deceptive Solitude
Caleb Date
A few days ago, I received a box of old belongings from the insurance company. Inside, I found a toy gun Caleb had given me when we were young...
General
Date Type
Obtain

Deceptive Solitude is a Memoria Date with Caleb in Love and Deepspace.

Rewards[edit source]

Completion Rewards
50% Diamond x20
100% Diamond x20

Storyline Diagram

To edit the diagram, go to the diagram subpage: Deceptive Solitude (Caleb Memoria)/Diagram

Deceptive Solitude (Caleb Memoria)/Diagram

Video[edit source]

There is currently no video with English audio available. If you have a YouTube video available, you can add it through the following steps:

  • Click here to edit this page.
  • Find the text |videoEN=. If it is not there, add it before the }}.
  • Add the following right after: <youtube>link to youtube video</youtube>
  • Example: |videoEN=<youtube>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=urONohYpdVA</youtube>

There is currently no video with Traditional Chinese audio available. If you have a YouTube video available, you can add it through the following steps:

  • Click here to edit this page.
  • Find the text |videoCHI1=. If it is not there, add it before the }}.
  • Add the following right after: <youtube>link to youtube video</youtube>
  • Example: |videoCHI1=<youtube>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=urONohYpdVA</youtube>

There is currently no video with Simplified Chinese audio available. If you have a YouTube video available, you can add it through the following steps:

  • Click here to edit this page.
  • Find the text |videoCHI2=. If it is not there, add it before the }}.
  • Add the following right after: <youtube>link to youtube video</youtube>
  • Example: |videoCHI2=<youtube>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=urONohYpdVA</youtube>

There is currently no video with Japanese audio available. If you have a YouTube video available, you can add it through the following steps:

  • Click here to edit this page.
  • Find the text |videoJPN=. If it is not there, add it before the }}.
  • Add the following right after: <youtube>link to youtube video</youtube>
  • Example: |videoJPN=<youtube>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=urONohYpdVA</youtube>

There is currently no video with Korean audio available. If you have a YouTube video available, you can add it through the following steps:

  • Click here to edit this page.
  • Find the text |videoKOR=. If it is not there, add it before the }}.
  • Add the following right after: <youtube>link to youtube video</youtube>
  • Example: |videoKOR=<youtube>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=urONohYpdVA</youtube>

Script[edit source]

To edit the script, go to the script subpage: Deceptive Solitude (Caleb Memoria)/Script
Deceptive Solitude (Caleb Memoria)

Midsummer's morning breeze slips through the open window and enters the living room, lifting the strands of hair on Caleb's forehead.

He focuses on the toy gun in his hand. The silvery-gray barrel regains its former sheen as he sands it down.

Caleb: Pass me the small brush.
Main Character: I'm quite busy with mixing the paint. Would it be too much trouble for you to bend down and grab it yourself?

Although I say those words, I rummage through the tool bag Caleb brought and hand him the brush.

Caleb: First off, this is your toy gun.
Caleb: And... if you were better at hidin' those sneaky glances, your excuse of being "quite busy" might hold water.
Caleb: Miss "Busy" Painter... is engrossed in her work. Right?
Main Character: ...I'm focused on getting the paint just right. It's been a decade, after all. It might take some time for me to remember.
Main Character: I'm pretty sure the gunstock was darker back then?

I look at the freshly painted brown gunstock and feel like it doesn't match the one in my memory.

Caleb: It's probably because the rubber is old, so the color's faded. It was darker before.
Caleb: You always complained it wasn't bright enough as a kid. Why not give it a new color while we're at it?
Caleb: Red, green, or bright yellow? It'll be very eye-catching.

Seeing Caleb's teasing eyes, I pick up the brush and move it around the palette, pretending to ponder.

Then I quickly dab on some red, feigning a surprise attack, yet playfully poke Caleb's cheek with the brush handle.

Main Character: Fine, on top of changing the color, I'll also decorate the gun with colorful flowers and plants.
Main Character: And I'll make sure to show it off to your team and tell them about the exquisite taste of their stern and cool boss, Colonel Caleb.
Caleb: Is this your idea of returnin' the favor?
Main Character: I'm sprucing up your image as an "amiable and friendly" boss.
Caleb: Really? Well, I appreciate the effort.
Main Character: Don't mention it. Okay, the gunstock is ready. Here you go!

I shove the refurbished gunstock into Caleb's hand, stretch, and start rummaging through a wooden crate nearby.

Caleb: Find anything interesting this time?
Main Character: Dolls, models, cards, and... A flier and contract from an insurance program. It's focused on "ten years in the future."
Main Character: Parties to the contract: Main Character, Caleb.

As I gently touch the aged paper bearing our signatures, I notice Caleb skillfully assembling the gun's parts out of the corner of my eye.

Main Character: Grandma was worried about our safety when she stored our toy guns. She never imagined that we would end up carrying real ones all the time.
Caleb: We've come a long way from patrolling with paper guns in the shelter, ready to "face the enemy."
Caleb: All set. Here you go, lil sharpshooter.

I take the revamped toy gun, aim it at the Illustrated Guide To Wanderers on the shelf behind Caleb, and pull the trigger.

A rubber bullet whizzes through the air and knocks the book off the shelf, but the gun doesn't reload. Puzzled, I fiddle with the cylinder.

Main Character: Is it jammed?
Caleb: Sounds like it. Let me see.

Caleb dismantles the gun and removes the cylinder. Beneath the casing is a crack hidden in intricate design.

Caleb: ...This kinda damage is irreversible. But there's a place that might help us.

I follow Caleb into a vintage shop on the outskirts of the city.

The shop is tucked away in the alley. Its walls, covered in Main Character, serve as a natural veil that adds to its mystery.

Main Character: So this is what people mean by "unassuming outside, magical inside"...
Shopkeeper: You've got a keen eye, miss. All the "junk" here has its own story to tell...

As the shop owner prepares to deliver a long speech, I awkwardly give Caleb a wink.

Caleb: Sir, can you take a look at this cylinder?

The shopkeeper confidently sets down his magnifying glass and retrieves a similar cylinder from the shelf behind him.

Shopkeeper: This toy gun is very old. The original cylinder for it isn't easy to find anymore, but-
Shopkeeper: I've got another cylinder of a different material that matches in size and pattern. I'll fit it after some tweaking! It's your lucky day.
Main Character: I'll leave it in your capable hands, then!

While the shopkeeper works on the cylinder, I drag Caleb along to admire the shop's dazzling array of vintage parts and accessories.

Main Character: This revolver has an exquisite design, but it feels weird in my hand. It's not real, right?
Caleb: Yep, these are all props. The shopkeeper's a Western film buff. He got these from various movie sets.
Main Character: No wonder there's a sense of history here. And that vintage cowboy gun holster is rugged-looking despite its intricate stitches...
Caleb: You're right.

Out of the blue, I notice a proud twinkle in Caleb's gaze. It's as if the phrase "perfectly in sync" is written in his eyes...

Caleb: Why hasn't that holster found a new owner after so many years? Too pricey?
Shopkeeper: It's made from the finest materials with handcrafted embroidery. Of course, it's not cheap.
Main Character: After... so many years?
Caleb: Yep, I worked here for a whole summer once when I was in high school.
Shopkeeper: I wanted to keep him for a while longer since he's so efficient, but he left as soon as he got enough cash.
Shopkeeper: It's been a decade. You've changed, kid. Took me a while to recognize you today.
Main Character: (Ten years... Didn't Caleb give me the toy gun around that time? And it has a vintage design...)
Main Character: Why did you need to earn money from a place that's so far away? Grandma's allowance wasn't enough?

Noticing my knowing, inquisitive look, Caleb smiles. He leans down to fasten the pricey gun holster around my waist.

Caleb: Your toy gun wasn't gonna fall from the sky, pip-squeak. I had to earn your gift with my own hands.

After securing the holster, Caleb proceeds to pull out a movie poster that was on the same rack as the holster.

Caleb: You know what movie this is?
Main Character: Hunting Games? Isn't that my favorite Western from when I was in middle school?
Caleb: Back then, you always talked about wantin' to be like the heroine in those Westerns, deliverin' justice and all that.
Main Character: So that's why you gave me the toy gun, and I...

Seeing the revolver on the poster, a realization suddenly dawns on me. Astonished, I turn to look at the toy gun in the shopkeeper's hand.

Main Character: It's... not movie merch, is it?
Caleb: Actually, it's one of the spare prop guns from that movie set.

The toy gun seems to glow brightly at that moment. I excitedly pinch Caleb's cheek.

Main Character: Caleb, you know people are supposed to use their mouths to talk, right?
Caleb: I know. That's why I said, "With this gun, you'll be the Wild West's Guardian."
Caleb: And you said, "Caleb will be my knight who swears an oath to protect the Guardian."
Caleb: You know how the shopkeeper exaggerates. Most of the stuff comin' out of his mouth isn't even half-true. I couldn't let you be misled.
Shopkeeper: Kid, why drag me into your stories? This gun's a real deal! Anyway, It's fixed now. Come and take it.
Caleb: Thank you very much.

Seeing Caleb's honest expression, I slowly relax my grip.

Caleb: Good thing I didn't say anything back then, or else Gran would've taken away that toy and you would have only had it for a few days. I can already imagine how much you would've cried.
Main Character: I wouldn't have... Well, maybe a few tears would've been shed.
Caleb: Your toy gun is fixed. Ready to head out now?

I nod and start to turn around. And then, a vintage cowboy hat in the corner catches my attention.

Its pattern and color perfectly match the holster on my waist.

Main Character: Hold on a sec.

I quickly walk over, grab the hat, and jog back to place it on Caleb's head.

Caleb: Is this... how you return the favor?
Main Character: You bet! You got me a holster, and I got you a hat. But it's more than just a gift...

I stand on my tiptoes and mimic Caleb's tone from earlier. I pull down the brim of his hat.

Main Character: With this, you're the Guardian's knight. Together, we'll uphold justice in this Wild West. Will you join me?

Softly chuckling, Caleb lowers his gaze, places his right hand on his left shoulder, and solemnly kneels to salute me.

Caleb: The pleasure is all mine.

After fixing the toy gun for half a day, Caleb and I decided to test our shooting skills against each other.

At the suburban shooting range, Caleb and I, wearing protective goggles, aim at the distant targets with our air rifles.

Caleb: Hey, Main Character. You're a sharpshooter, right? Ready for your shot?
Main Character: I've been ready for a while.

Our shots hit the bullseye almost simultaneously.

Main Character: At this rate, we might still be trying to outshoot each other by sundown...
Caleb: Decisive and skillful-you've improved so quickly. Looks like you've got your own shooting style now?
Main Character: You're not wrong. Let me tell you my first rule of shooting: imagine the target as a Wanderer and you'll never miss.
Caleb: You sound quite confident.
Caleb: When you aced that first shot during the club event, did you imagine the target as a Wanderer as well?

Caleb is referring to my "first shot" during his early college days.

As soon as I heard their college shooting club was planning an event out on the shooting range, I immediately insisted on tagging along.

Holding the air rifle, which felt real, I tried to appear calm as I took my shot. But actually-

Main Character: Back then, there was no time for imagination-dealing with the recoil was hard enough.
Main Character: That first shot must have been beginner's luck. Every attempt after that probably exposed my inexperience.
Caleb: Your "beginner's luck" had Gideon and the others sneakin' in extra practice for days.
Caleb: But it makes sense. After all-

Caleb sets his air gun down and walks up behind me. He lifts my right wrist, his warm breath fanning the hair near my temple.

Caleb: Back then, we'd use those toy guns to shoot apples that sat on cans. It was always difficult to tell who would win, just like now.
Caleb: Someone who can't beat me definitely has their work cut out tryin' to outshoot you.
Main Character: Still boastful as usual, I see.
Caleb: I only do that when I'm with you. Look-

Caleb pauses, and I turn. A subtle frown appears on his face as he stares at my goggles, his gaze showing he's somewhat distracted.

Main Character: What are you looking at?

He shakes his head, plucks a leaf from my hair, and waves it before my eyes.

Caleb: It's been a long day. How about I buy some smoothies from the concession stand? Though, you might have to wait a bit. There's usually a lot of people.
Caleb: Once you return the gear, wait for me at the entrance. I should be back by then.
Main Character: ...Huh?

Before I can say anything, Caleb shoves the goggles into my hand, pats my head, and turns to leave.

As I watch him disappear into the distance, a sense of unease quietly rises in my heart.

A skinny man with dark circles under his eyes lurks behind the cabin at the shooting range. Nervous, he clutches a firearm.

Suspicious, he has a hidden earpiece in his right ear as he looks at the concession stand in the distance.

Skinny Man: He should be buying smoothies at the stand. Will be leaving soon...
Caleb: Looking for me?

Startled by the familiar voice behind him, the man quickly turns around and aims his gun at Caleb.

Caleb leans against the wall and dismissively flicks his fingers. Suddenly, the man's gun and earpiece fly out, hovering in midair.

Skinny Man: ?! You!

Uncontrollably, the man falls to his knees.

Caleb: I see a fish has escaped the net. How brittle.

Caleb crushes the earpiece in his hand and turns. The suspended gun dissolves into dust that scatters and falls into the weeds.

With bloodshot eyes, the man behind him musters up all his strength to lunge for the firearm at Caleb's waist.

When the man takes the bait, Caleb instantly grabs his wrist and flings him backward.

Tiny particles from the gun's grip burrow themselves into the man's fingers.

Skinny Man: What, you're not going to send your obedient monsters after me this time?
Caleb: You escaped even after I spotted you. Think they'll still trust you when you return?
Caleb: Is there even a hiding place left for you?

Caleb stops looking at the trembling man behind him and picks up his gun and meticulously cleans it.

A few minutes later, a command pops up on the communication device of Liam, the Farspace Fleet's adjutant.

"Target was sighted in Linkon and is heading to the second base. Follow the signal and prepare for pursuit."

The evening breeze in the forest dispels midsummer heat, but it can't dispel the unease in my heart.

Standing at the shooting range entrance with my backpack, I absentmindedly scroll through my chat with Caleb that's on my phone.

Main Character: (He still hasn't sent a message... Should I ask about it?)

Caleb left in a hurry and made a flimsy excuse.

Main Character: Never mind.
Caleb: I kept you waitin', huh? Here, let me cool you off, pip-squeak.

As a shadow falls over me, a cool sensation graces my still-warm cheeks.

I look up to see Caleb, who offers me a slightly melted smoothie as he relieves me of my backpack.

Caleb: The sun's setting. Let's go home.

As Caleb takes my hand and leads me out of the shooting range, my gaze lands on the loosely fastened holster under his coat.

Main Character: ...Aren't you going to explain yourself?
Caleb: The smoothie kinda melted because of the heat. I'll run faster next time.

Caleb shows no signs of giving me a direct answer. I let go of his hand and grab a leaf from his head.

Main Character: How did you buy a smoothie when you were in the forest?

Caleb just smiles and says nothing. I sigh, walk ahead of him while holding my smoothie, and leave him trailing behind.

Main Character: If you were a second late, I wouldn't have waited.

It's evening when we return home. I quietly curl up on the sofa, absentmindedly spinning the toy gun's cylinder.

The heavy curtains shield me from the sunset's prying eyes, wrapping my thoughts in the glow of a flickering projection.

Hidden there are memories of the past-

Caleb: ...Steady your breathing. Align your gaze, the laser sight, and the target. They should all be at the same level.
Caleb: Now, feel the subtle sway of the muzzle. Steadily press the trigger with your index finger, applying even pressure...
Main Character: Wow, you really are the best sharpshooter in the club, Caleb! Looks like Gideon's tutorial will be over soon.
Caleb: What are you gonna get in exchange for being his photographer?
Caleb: Three? Like three shooting sessions with the club?
Main Character: Exactly!
Caleb: You're gonna sell me out that easily? Ask more from him next time.
Main Character: Uh, my camera's still recording...
Caleb: ...

The frame freezes on Caleb's smiling face as I switch off the projector. Silence returns to the room.

Back then, his presence was a comforting warmth, but now...

Even though he's right here, it feels like he could slip away at any moment.

The shower has already been turned off, but there's no sound from Caleb. I set down the toy gun and head toward the bathroom.

Caleb silently stands in front of the fogged mirror. He's cleaning the firearm he usually uses while his head is lowered.

Droplets of water slide from his damp hair, tracing down his chest as it rises and falls, before disappearing into the towel wrapped around his waist.

Hearing my approaching footsteps, Caleb quickly masks his solemn expression and looks up to meet my gaze in the mirror.

Main Character: I caught you lost in thought, Colonel. Are you sharing intel with your beloved gun? Maybe he senses what's on my mind. Caleb pretends to be serious as he looks at the gun in his hand.
Caleb: Hey, buddy. You're not allowed to deceive her, you hear?

Caleb's response prompts me to raise an eyebrow when I look at the gun reflected in the mirror.

Main Character: With that high-powered scope, you must have a great view. What kind of interesting things are out there in the woods?
Caleb: Gun Sr. says "I spy with my little scope a small mouse. It's not interesting."
Main Character: A mouse? Do you really need to get personally involved?
Caleb: Gun Sr. says "My bullets aren't cheap. I'm not wasting one on that thing."
Caleb: "It was a little scare, and the mouse got spooked and scurried off."
Main Character: ...So it's a mouse. What about next time?

I know Caleb is trying to reassure me, but his explanation does nothing to soothe my unease.

It's because my concerns have never been about a single, unannounced departure.

Main Character: Bullets run out eventually, and guns are worn down with every shot. What if it breaks one day?
Main Character: Will you dismantle it and replace the worn parts? It'll be like what you did with the toy gun.

A nervous tension seems to pluck at invisible strings in the air. I shift my gaze to meet Caleb's eyes in the mirror.

Caleb: If rust sets in, it'll be polished and repainted. And if it's too damaged to be repaired, we'll replace it.
Caleb: As long as it's still my gun.

The dangerous-looking gun obediently spins in Caleb's hand as he ejects the magazine and flexes his fingers.

A bullet drifts out of the magazine and lands in my hand gently.

The cold brass casing, bathed in the setting sun's fading light, briefly takes on a deceptively warm glow.

Caleb: If you're worried about running out of bullets, keep one hidden deep within a pocket, or hold it tightly in your hand.
Main Character: ...They're not the same.

The prolonged silence solidifies the air, and the interplay of light and shadows blurs the space between me and Caleb.

Caleb: Are you worried you won't recognize this gun one day?
Main Character: Yes... and no.

My thoughts, tangled as if in a knot, flood my mind.

After a long pause, I sigh and look up at Caleb in the mirror.

Main Character: Honestly, I'm not even sure what I'm worried about.
Main Character: You've become strong, much stronger than before, but the threats around you have never been so...
Main Character: Terrifying.

The cold light illuminates Caleb's smooth right arm, and even the warm steam can't bring any warmth to that biomimetic skin.

Caleb: Only with strength can we confront these terrifying threats.
Main Character: How do you know for sure that they won't grow along with your strength?
Caleb: Do you miss the old Caleb? The one who wasn't so... dangerous?
Main Character: ...I'm just scared these threats will take you away from me.
Main Character: Or maybe it's because you'll drift further away as you become too strong...

My voice trails off. On hearing my response, Caleb seems to let out a sigh of relief.

He walks over to me, takes my hand from the doorframe, and gently caresses it.

Caleb: Whatever you're worried about, I only hear one thing.
Caleb: "I don't want to be apart from Caleb."

Caleb leans down to look into my eyes.

Caleb: Look at me, Main Character.
Caleb: When you're feeling uneasy, you have two options.
Caleb: Either you run to me or grab onto me.

Our hands are clasped tightly. Despite the bullet pressing painfully into them, neither of us wants to let go.

Run to him, face every challenge together, or pull him back before he drifts too far away from me.

Main Character: Once I grab onto you, you won't disappear again?
Caleb: I won't.

As the steam clears, there's still some distance between Caleb and me in front of the mirror, but in its reflection, he's already holding me close.

Perhaps he already gave me the answer I wanted when he offered those choices.

No matter how far apart we are at the moment or how different his path is from mine.

No matter how much of his "former self" remains.

The Caleb in the mirror knows he hasn't strayed too far.

Caleb: I've never forgotten why I picked up a gun in the first place.

Caleb comes up behind me, wraps his arm around my shoulders, and holds my dangling hands in his calloused grip.

In the mirror, that familiar gaze blurs the boundaries of time for a transient moment.

In the corner of the shelter, a young Caleb stands before me holding a soaked paper gun.

Caleb: I won't lose! I have someone I must protect!

The sun's reflection slowly sinks below the horizon and casts its final rays on the bookshelf in the corner.

There lie two paper guns, huddled together.